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my feelings in tis wicked n unjust call ctr....
its tiring me both physically n mentally...its so draining...damn..I hate it!haiz... e only thing sustainin me here is e frens tt Ive made here...Im like so dead...feel like I want 2 quit bt cant as I have commitments...haiz..hate it hate it hate it!
ytd, went 2 dinner wit Syl, Onara n Has n we ate @ Swensens..Has had 2 leave n so left e 3 of us...we moved over 2 coffee club n had really good coffee! e day was great bt then suddenly Syl say he want 2 TENDER in may! loud alarm bells rang inside my head! wat?!!! Im goin 2 lose e guy who had act made me laugh so much throughout my entire time here?! I felt so sad n stunned...even sent an sms 2 ask him 2 stay bt he say he'll consider...haiz...he cant leave...already e sched sucks, wats e point of feedback anyway!....then if he leaves, I tink I might go too...he my buddy...dunno whether he feels e same way bt I treat him as such...haiz...Im being selfish bt I'll b so sad if he does so!
during e dinner ytd, Onara confirmed my suspicions bout e working r/s btw Freddie n tt old hag...apparently, b4 I came in, Freddie had appeared 2 speak up during one of those meetings...frm tt point of time, he was n is (?) in e bad books...like wat e heck?! tt old hag only needs subservient ppl, TOTALLY no strong personalities r allowed 2 surface! DAMN her lah! when we had e meeting in late nov, Freddie was there too...tt old hag had made some comments but I didnt get it..now, I do...hey, he is my TL n u suck! how I wish I could say the exact same words 2 her ugly fugly horrible face rite nw!
arrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Im pissed so deep tt u will regret ever making faizah mahmud ANGRY!
working here, merits dun count..instead u must b an expert in boot licking =( dumb dumb! e boss I dun give a damn, then her 2 lackeys, i ignore, except for edmund..he seems 2 b around most of the time...he seems ok bt onara says he is e one tt i need 2 b aware of..hmmm...cant b bothered anymore..just ans calls will do...as Randy aptly sums up, Im e lowest life form here..
earlier on mon, Freddie came 2 c us one by one..Randy first, followed by me, Manon n Jayce...we went 2 the pantry 4 like almost 20 mins n he told me tt our team ( as randy says, best team ) has been too responsive 4 our own good! tt old hag had came 2 c him when he had reported @ 1pm 2 inform him this...we have our own set of eyes, nose, mouth n ears so when we want 2 give feedback, why cant we do so?!?!?! why why why why???!! u noe when I talked 2 Freddie, I felt tt he has his own way of ''protecting'' us.I really feel it...4 instance, he always closes our CRMS, even tho he will nag n he is a man of few words...he may look or act stern but I tink he is a very good n knowledgeable TL...he can b so cina n lame most of e times but tt odd weird part of him tickles us in a way tt makes us miss him when he went on compliance in e first 2 weeks of dec...haha...e most talked about TL of e call ctr by a mile...i noe some ppl might nt like him but I tink he had changed...last time he was such a total off limits type of person bt strangely, aft his bdae in Aug, he miraculously changed into another ''open'' person..which puzzled us initially but I tink tt is his bdae resolution..haha...no idea..
Im nt feeling in e best of moods rite now, cuz 1stly its xmas, 2ndly there r many calls which I swore most at the chrs 4 nt letting us take a breather n 3rdly, its bloody cold in e call ctr n my fingers n almost frozen! hate it hate it!!!aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok lah..I tink I had clearly showed my frustrations here! seriously, dun make me march up 2 tt bloody dog by e name of Joe n smash his ugly fugly face! honestly! u r 29/30 yrs old n act r age, bastard! have guts babe!
c u when I c u k! take care n try 2 chill...I need some wind n a typhoon mayb...
xoxo w lots of love
faizah m.
tis wk Im doin nite shift w e most chaotic n fun ppl! Its a blast n away frm the pryin eyes of e management which Ive slowly learnt 2 ignore... Freddie is back n e team missed him..Nt missing a beat, I sent him an email on behalf of e team, givin him feedback on e roster n wat he had missed during his 2 wks of absence...also asked him bout his ''tattoo'' on his forehead; which both Manon n Randy insist he had once belonged 2 a gang! however, all allegations came 2 a nought as he claimed its a mole..once again, these 2 dun believe his story..haiz...I tink I need 2 stare @ him next wk once Im back on aft shift...cant believe Im stoopin 2 tis level...haha!
watched TWILIGHT last Mon as my sis insisted on treatin me..e vampire family r gorgeous w a capital G! rite nw, Im SO besotted w both Jasper n Alice.. their love 4 each other moved me n I began 2 wonder whether they will be a real life couple anytime soon ( hence e pics which Ive posted earlier)...have read all 3 books except e last one..nw Ive jumped 2 INKHEART, another book 2 movie which will b showin next yr! cant wait, e trailer looks promising..Brendan Fraser is in it n I love him! He is hilarious n convincin as a hero =) my obsession w fantasy n anything magical; no except Narnia n Golden Compass which I tink r rip-offs!
u noe, night shift tis wk has been so full of laughter, thanks 2 Rohaya, Randy n Manon! my stomach hurts so bad...I tink they shud nt lump us together, its e EVIL n HUNGRY group! munching n talking nonsense aint a gd thing 4 both body n soul..anyway, they have been like dragging tis particular name into any conversations we had n Im so worried tt e person might tink I like him!GASP!!! hopefully tis dies down SOON...=(
Syl is comin back n Im really happy! Finally aft wks of disappearance, I will b able 2 tease him once again! yeah! fun fun fun!!! 4 e festive season, Onara is plannin on e dinner 4 24th... I need 2 change my sched, need 2 talk 2 Edmund fast! as most of e shifters r workin on Xmas, we had decided 2 order a roast turkey from e Royals..yummylicious! I will b bringin pasta n fried chicken wings while Rohaya will bring potato salad..later in e evenin, we will have steamboat; in courtesy of Mas...wow, we r really being radicals here...prev was durians in e call ctr now steamboat! haha..wonder wats next?! also on e next day, we r goin 2 JB 4 another FOOD galore! haha...suddenly, i hear e word FAT screamin @ me but too bad, Im content w my size ;) LIVE LIFE 2 E FULLEST! ( in tis sense, its food food food) yeah!
okay gt 2 freshen up my face...c u when i c u k!
xoxo w lots of love
faizah m.

e CAST @ Vanity Fair Photoshoot!
My FAV COUPLE...hope they get together in real life ;)
a great wallpaper put together by their fans...
another one as Alice & Jasper in TWILIGHT...
today's post will b a bit emotional 4 me...last nite when I was havin my normal late nite dinner w my sis, my dad came home frm his normal golf routine...he said certain things which disconcerted me a bit..he was back frm my new plc 2 check on e lights which he had put up last sun..even tho tis sounds minor, but his gesture act really moved me.. I also spotted plasters on several fingers, n tis made me realise tt he is act growing older w each passing day..We had our squabbles ( me n him r so alike in temperament but I tink Im worse) but I tink I do love him..U c, even typing tis makes me teary eyed...Damn!
Life is short, n usually we try 2 make e most of it..but I tink sometimes, its really hard 2 achieve e things tt I want in tis life..4 me, life is okay but unfulfilled... 4 eg, my studies...I used 2 imagine myself workin 4 e MFA, w e delegates frm all over e world, tackling issues; something like wat e UN does..haha! BIG ambitions...but nothin happened, didnt study hard enuff 2 go 2 Uni...haiz..waste of my dad's money..even now, Im still lazy 2 continue as I have more urgent issues 2 settle; my house 4 instance..maybe later in life...
so obviously, marriage is nt an option..tt's y I spent most of my time ogling @ strangers n Zac Efron! most of my frens knew, tis is all just distraction...anyway, e GUY of my dreams had registered 4 his marriage recently..haiz..down e drain.. I still remembered e time when I was in sec 1, he was a yr older n I saw him on e bus towards Jurong JC...he was like so cool; sitting alone n gazin out of e window in a nonchalant way..n it doesnt help tt e wind was blowin his hair..haha..tt IS love @ first sight! up till now, I still have feelings 4 him; I find it so nt amusing when everytime I contemplate on a relationship, I will tink of him..I noe its nt gd but if tt's e way my brain works, then I c no way of getting married! which suits me fine 4 now..11 long yrs...WOW..
ytd,work was dreadful..Eng Huat commented on my ''quietness'', which I tink was unusual 4 him n others I guess..haha..feelin so lonely, I moved over 2 Amin's plc...chatted w Manon n Rohaya...gradually my mood became better! ate some caramel bars or (cakes?) brought back by Joseph n Ann...yummy! had 3 of those, then kena scolded by e gals...too bad I have a sweet tooth!
I cant wait 2 c SYL!!! Night shift is loomin...hate e part when I have to work 11.5 hrs on Mon...haiz..
finally OFF tis Fri! c u when i c u k!
xoxo w lots of love
faizah m.
workin again..like every other day....sianzzzzzz....i started @ 2.30pm, been ans calls like no one's biznes, average of 18 calls/hr 2day! wow! want 2 b top agent also nt until like tt muz ans rite! throat very itchy now, feel like drinkin green tea frappe frm Starbucks =) n hungry too..wat shud i eat?! been gorgin myself w so much food over e weekend..die! need 2 lose weight fast, if nt i will be left on e shelves! haha...as if I care...
well, nothing interestin happened last wk except went 2 JB w my family 2 buy lights 4 my new plc..its been dull since syl went on break..missed him! he will b comin back nxt wk but I will b on nite shift..DAMN! tink I can c him only for e Xmas dinner...haiz...still plannin on e venue for e dinner, but lookin @ feedback, i tink Holland V is e preferred spot..hmmm..so near 2 workplc..I still haven find Xmas prezzies! hurry hurry!
I tink I looked horrible lately...my undereyes r super black..nt enuff sleep lah...a bit dehydrated, need more water...also need mask! will buy later @ JP..hopefully I will look great on Xmas! haha..
ok lah..no mood 2 type! c u when i c u k!
xoxo w lots of love
faizah m.

ooo...e CULLEN family...look at CARLISLE!! hot daddy ;)
e intensity of e gaze.....melt....
cool!!
speechless....
speechless part 2....
stubborn, lame n BIG
~ Likes ~watching movies, sleeping, sweet stuff like chocs N pastries N traditional kuih muih, eating durian ice kacang
~ Loves ~me!haha..so ego..no lah..loves HSM so much!! zac efron so cute ;)n my family n frens of cuz
~ Hates ~stab in the back ppl, snakes..
~ Wishes ~to get a good man n have a long lasting marriage filled with many many love ;)haha..can i add i wanna meet zac efron?! yeah..!!