my feelings in tis wicked n unjust call ctr....
its tiring me both physically n mentally...its so draining...damn..I hate it!haiz... e only thing sustainin me here is e frens tt Ive made here...Im like so dead...feel like I want 2 quit bt cant as I have commitments...haiz..hate it hate it hate it!
ytd, went 2 dinner wit Syl, Onara n Has n we ate @ Swensens..Has had 2 leave n so left e 3 of us...we moved over 2 coffee club n had really good coffee! e day was great bt then suddenly Syl say he want 2 TENDER in may! loud alarm bells rang inside my head! wat?!!! Im goin 2 lose e guy who had act made me laugh so much throughout my entire time here?! I felt so sad n stunned...even sent an sms 2 ask him 2 stay bt he say he'll consider...haiz...he cant leave...already e sched sucks, wats e point of feedback anyway!....then if he leaves, I tink I might go too...he my buddy...dunno whether he feels e same way bt I treat him as such...haiz...Im being selfish bt I'll b so sad if he does so!
during e dinner ytd, Onara confirmed my suspicions bout e working r/s btw Freddie n tt old hag...apparently, b4 I came in, Freddie had appeared 2 speak up during one of those meetings...frm tt point of time, he was n is (?) in e bad books...like wat e heck?! tt old hag only needs subservient ppl, TOTALLY no strong personalities r allowed 2 surface! DAMN her lah! when we had e meeting in late nov, Freddie was there too...tt old hag had made some comments but I didnt get it..now, I do...hey, he is my TL n u suck! how I wish I could say the exact same words 2 her ugly fugly horrible face rite nw!
arrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Im pissed so deep tt u will regret ever making faizah mahmud ANGRY!
working here, merits dun count..instead u must b an expert in boot licking =( dumb dumb! e boss I dun give a damn, then her 2 lackeys, i ignore, except for edmund..he seems 2 b around most of the time...he seems ok bt onara says he is e one tt i need 2 b aware of..hmmm...cant b bothered anymore..just ans calls will do...as Randy aptly sums up, Im e lowest life form here..
earlier on mon, Freddie came 2 c us one by one..Randy first, followed by me, Manon n Jayce...we went 2 the pantry 4 like almost 20 mins n he told me tt our team ( as randy says, best team ) has been too responsive 4 our own good! tt old hag had came 2 c him when he had reported @ 1pm 2 inform him this...we have our own set of eyes, nose, mouth n ears so when we want 2 give feedback, why cant we do so?!?!?! why why why why???!! u noe when I talked 2 Freddie, I felt tt he has his own way of ''protecting'' us.I really feel it...4 instance, he always closes our CRMS, even tho he will nag n he is a man of few words...he may look or act stern but I tink he is a very good n knowledgeable TL...he can b so cina n lame most of e times but tt odd weird part of him tickles us in a way tt makes us miss him when he went on compliance in e first 2 weeks of dec...haha...e most talked about TL of e call ctr by a mile...i noe some ppl might nt like him but I tink he had changed...last time he was such a total off limits type of person bt strangely, aft his bdae in Aug, he miraculously changed into another ''open'' person..which puzzled us initially but I tink tt is his bdae resolution..haha...no idea..
Im nt feeling in e best of moods rite now, cuz 1stly its xmas, 2ndly there r many calls which I swore most at the chrs 4 nt letting us take a breather n 3rdly, its bloody cold in e call ctr n my fingers n almost frozen! hate it hate it!!!aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok lah..I tink I had clearly showed my frustrations here! seriously, dun make me march up 2 tt bloody dog by e name of Joe n smash his ugly fugly face! honestly! u r 29/30 yrs old n act r age, bastard! have guts babe!
c u when I c u k! take care n try 2 chill...I need some wind n a typhoon mayb...
xoxo w lots of love
faizah m.
